I am incredibly irritable today.
There are probably a lot of reasons why.
R contacted me a few days ago. Apparently he still loves me, and still thinks about me all of the time, and he hates himself for killing the relationship that we had, and he wishes he could prove himself to me, that we could be happy again.
I told him that there will never be a him and I again, because there will always be an H and him... and a him and every other girl.
He told me that he hates her and that she's ruining his life and that he thinks she's a dirty whore and that he wants to rid his life of her... but I've heard it all before. He's a compulsive liar who lies to get what he wants, and she's just as bad as him. He tried to tell me he rarely talks to her, which I know is a complete lie.
Anyways, so... there has been talking going on there, which has made me upset, and I broke down and cried for half an hour today because of it, and then ended up falling asleep for two hours. Now I have a tummy ache.
I love napping, but I get sick from it. I get the worst stomach aches as a result of it.
also, I just want to take a hot shower and go to bed, but, oh! Lucky me, there's no effing hot water in my apartment, and the floor heating isn't working again.
Please, will someone make Korea work properly again, I can't handle this crap. I live in apartment, I should have hot water and working ondol!
Please, can I just go back to my parents' house now?
Also, it is snowing. My house is cold, I have no hot water to take a shower, R won't go away, and it is snowing.
Ugh.
I want to curl up and die.
